The News

I'm amazed by the relative speed at which the news of my separation spread through the office. It was everywhere all at once. My cubicle mate, I'm almost certain, was the one to first leak the information.

Although I had not planned to keep the news a secret, I didn't intend for it to be an office wide scandal.

I was in a meeting with my boss when I first heard the news had hit my coworkers. My boss had laid a hand on my shoulder and looked me in the eye, asking if I was ok. 'Yes' I had commented, I wasn't quite sure what he was implying. He then proceeded to tell me he had "heard the news".

It is an odd mix of feelings, actually, to be confronted with a situation like that. First, embarrassment that my superior knows of my personal problems. I try very hard to keep my personal life separate from my professional life. Then, sadness, a sick feeling creeps in telling you that your life is in turmoil. Then, anger, thoughts of strangling the life out of whomever has leaked this information. Lastly, fear of the unknown, what does life have in store for me?

Yes, it has been a while.....

I've been experiencing such crazy days and situations, as you may well have expected. Going into the new chapter of my life I knew things would be drastically different, and, I was not mistaken.

The last few weeks seem to have flown by in a blur. Sometimes I don't think I can keep up.

Last week I met with my lawyer for the first time. I'm not so sure I like him, R referred him to me because he was a good friend. It bothers me a bit that this man will be digging into some very personal aspects of my life, finances, and possessions. He is a complete stranger to me. Not only that, he is a good friend to R. Would they be discussing my situation without me present? And, what exactly would they be discussing? Perhaps I'm making to much of the situation, perhaps I'm not.

He's such a suave guy, and so handsome, but I get such a bad feeling around him. He is a predator circling fresh kill.